My Heart Belongs to Two Men.

My heart belongs to two men and my husband is perfectly okay with that. 

I have always heard the cliche statement, "You heart will just grow in love and you will be able to love one just as much as you love the other." As women we usually hear this when we are fearful of having a second child. And it is true - you don't love one less so that you can love them equally. You just get more room to love. 

Isn't it amazing that God loves us so much that He gave his ONE AND ONLY Son so that we can have a life with Him! Think about it mamas, HIS ONE AND ONLY SON. 

Could you have done it? There is no way on God's green Earth that I would give up my ONE AND ONLY son. Even if God asked me to, I would be holding on so very tight, I wouldn't be able to let go. Sure, God, yes He is yours, but you gave him to me! You can't have him back.  He has my heart!

The day that Little Mister was laying on my chest (yes in this picture he is not even a day old) no longer brewing in my belly. My heart grew 3 sizes! Yep, I experienced exactly what The Grinch did!. My heart belonged to another man now. My husband now has to share. He is okay with that by the way.  

At the time of writing this Little Mr is 9 days shy of 3 and 1/2.

I love him more today on day 1262 than I did on day 1.  

I love him more today than I did on day 1 because ... 

I have seen how passionate he is ... that will take him to places he hasn't even thought of yet. Oh and he is a thinker!

Just like his daddy he loves to laugh. He loves to make you laugh! When he realizes he made you laugh he won't quit. According to him, "Quitting is a bad thing Mama." Just remember that when things get hard baby.

He is a lover with spunk. Don't let this sweet, sweet darling face fool you. He loves hard. Knock you to the floor with a flying bear hug hard. For him love him hard in return. The harder the better!

Dirt + Cars = One Happy Boy. I am so thankful that he is 3 1/2 now. I can let him spend as much time outside as his little heart desires with minimal supervision. He is so content to take his cars outside and just play in the sandbox or the grass.

Helper extraordinaire in the kitchen. Give him time and he will be doing it all on his own. Watch out ladies, he might have mama's gifts in the kitchen. Another skill that will take him far!

Be still my beating heart. What did I do to be this blessed? I don't deserve any of this. Thank you God for loving me this much and so much more..

He is adventurous, curious, and daring.

Watch out world! He is going to get you!

Full of life since day one. Stolen this Mama's heart from breathe one.

I thank God for him. Even on the days when I can't get pass the fighting, hitting, pushing, arguing and crying -- I thank God for my son. I thank God that I don't have to give up my one and only son. I couldn't do it. I would be giving up my heart.

Mommy loves you Monkey Man. More than my words will ever be able to express.

My Feeding Friend

Recently, I was asked to review a grow-with-me nursing pillow from My Feeding Friends.  With my PCOS nursing was hard for me with Little Miss, so we never tried with Little Mister.  I agreed to review this nursing pillow because Little Mister needs to be in a nursing position to fall asleep.

I also thought that it would be great seeing that it is designed to be a grow-with-me product.  Little Mister is going to be weened off the nighttime bottle here before long.  So if we get him associating the pillow with bedtime and relaxing it might make it easier for him.

The day that it arrived I had 2 very happy kids.

and

My Feeding Friend does not have button eyes!  Why can't more companies realize that embroidered eyes are so much better for kids?  Our tiger is super soft and cuddly.  As a stuffed animal -- 5 stars, A+.

As a breastfeeding support pillow.  Thinking back to reasons we used our other nursing pillow.  I am not sure My Feeding Friend would have worked as well.  We used it to support Little Mister as he was strengthening his core muscles to sit.  The other was nice and round to fit around him.  My Feeding Friend is more straight.  We also used the other for tummy time to keep him up a little.  The other was firmer and I feel offered more support.  As a tummy time aid -- 3 1/2 stars, C+.

Now for bedtime.  I used both this week to see the differences.  My Feeding Friend is much longer than the other support pillow.  The ends are thicker seeing that they are the head and feet of the tiger.  The other the ends are the thinnest.  The My Feeding Friend was much better.  It gave Little Mister the support that his head needed.  The other gave my elbow some support, but nothing really for him.  As a breast feeding support pillow -- 4 1/2 stars, A.  (The lose of a half star was because it was a little long.)

Seeing that my kiddos are a little older, they are more into the stuffed animal, cuddle stage of the pillow at this point.  I would say they love it.  Little Miss wants to steal it and Little Mister is happy to keep the box.

Connect with My Feeding Friend on Facebook and Twitter.

5 Photo Tips for Busy Moms

I am not a photographer nor do I claim to be.  HOWEVER ... I love to take pictures, I am a regular Mamarrazi.

October 2011 my beloved Kodak camera decided it was time to take its last picture.  NOT EVEN 6 WEEKS BEFORE I WAS ABOUT TO HAVE A BABY! This was not a good thing.  Not good at all.  My phone takes good pictures, but this Mama needed her a camera.

So, I made a call - knowing my brother worked at Toys R Us at the time and I had a coupon - were any cameras on sale?  Just so happened that there was a sale on cameras happening.

I ended up getting a great camera for a great price.

Before I had kids I loved to take pictures, but that all changed when you have babies.  You want to capture every single thing you can!

Here is a new take on Teach me Thursday.  5 tips I have found a few things using my digital camera to help me get some great pictures of my little nuggets.

1. Make use of the scene settings.

These are programed into your camera to capture different types of pictures.  If I am outside with the kids on a nicer day I am going to be using the sport setting.  It has the fastest shutter speed and capture those moments that they hold for 3 seconds before moving on.

2. Don't worry about the smile.

Now I am blessed with children that are just smiley.  When they look at me, with or without camera I usually get a smile.  Some of my favorite pictures are when the kids aren't even smiling.  They are just enjoying the world around them or deep in thought.  Candid shots are sometimes the best shots.

3. Experiment

My camera has settings that you can take pictures in different color settings.  Take the pictures in black and white for a different perspective.

4. Take lots of pictures!

I am not afraid to snap 10 pictures to get a great shot.  Take lots of pictures because your idea of a great shot, might not look the way you want.  (2nd picture top row)  Take lots of pictures because kids are going to move before the shutter snaps.  (middle picture middle row)  Take lots of pictures so you can capture silly moments.  (bottom row - pose, fall, both get up the same way)  The more pictures you take the more chances you are going to find a picture you love. 

5. Get on their level.

Thing look different from their little levels.  Take pictures looking up at them instead of them always looking up at you.

This little photo shoot was an impromptu event while we were getting some grass time.  Probably the only thing I will miss of living here the easy access to a lake and trees. 

A few more of my favorite pics from the photo shoot. 

9 Months {almost} Wordless Wednesday

9 months ago ...

November 9, 2011

9 months later ... 

{almost} November 9, 2012
11/4/2012

Comparison ... 

Dear God, thank you so much for letting me be their Mommy.  

Just Be

I have found that sometimes you just need to be ... 

awake to enjoy breakfast with Daddy/Hubs.  The lovelies have been getting up early. - like 5/6 early.  So we get up and do our morning thing.  We come down and eat breakfast with Daddy before he goes to work. (Which I am not going to lie, is nice to start my day with him.) 

Sometimes you just need to be ... laid back.  Our mornings are when we are most laid back.  We play and watch some tv.  I clean up the kitchen, check email, and do some social media stuff.  Around 9 we head outside.  Yes, at 9 in the morning we are going outside to play.  Why?  Because we can and the sun has not made it to our back yard so the temperature has been tolerable in the mornings.  We play outside until 10 or 1030 and Alex needs to nap.  I wish I could bottle these relaxed mornings and turn them into our afternoons.  

Sometimes you just need to be ... intentional.  Once lunch happens the time just flies right on by.  Before I look at the clock it is time to get up from naps and make dinner.  Where did my afternoon go? It is time to be intentional with how I am spending my time.  

 Sometimes you just need to be ... Mommy.  That's my favorite thing to be.

"Ice Cream" Dots - Potty Training Tool

Although this is not a "Feed Me Friday" post I guess it could be since I am posting about food.  We have started rewarding Kaitlyn for using the potty (#2) using "Ice Cream Dots".

This is mainly for making a #2, but that girl will sit there for a long time and try just to get it to come out.  So if she has truly tried for a long time she will get one for trying.

These are guilt free - even to reward my 2 year old.

I took a container of White Chocolate Strawberry Yoplait Light and dumped it into a pastry bag with a tip in the bag.  Line a cookie sheet with wax paper and squeeze out a whole bunch of dots.  Freeze.

When frozen pull off wax paper and store in a food storage container in your freezer.

Yes, I know I should not reward with food, but several places tell you to use candy while potty training.  I figured fake ice cream would be a much better idea.

Enjoy rewarding your child with a super alternative to ice cream.  Then enjoy the giggle when you are reminding her that if she can go she gets ice cream dots when she gets home and you hear your nephew say green with envy - "They have dipping dots at home!"

{Almost} Wordless Wednesday

My Blessings

Mommy, Look at me! Cheese!
Okay I guess you want your picture taken.  No problem sweetie!

"Babe get your camera!"
Okay, so he still isn't crawling, but I got a picture of "The Seal" - oh and Ham Bone!

Such a handsome little guy!

Promise, I do dress my son!  haha!

You!

Does God get song lyrics stuck in your head?  My answer, ALL THE TIME! I believe that this is God trying to teach me something or tell me something.  Well I currently have ...




stuck plastered in my mind.  I have listened to it probably 10 times already this morning so sorry if my Spotify shows up on your FB 10,000 times.

It helps Alex fall asleep if I sing to him.  Since this song is stuck in my mind that is the song I am singing to him.  Kaitlyn was in the room and I am singing and I hear ... "you" after I say "you".

Then this morning (yes it is still stuck) I am singing it while making breakfast and she is repeating the ending lyric of most of the lines.  I guess I am doing something right.  :)

Where you go I will go (go)
Where you stay I will stay (stay)
When you move I'll move (move)
I will follow (you!)

I turned it on and when it was over, "Mommy song again."  

Review: Pursuit of Proverbs 31

When I joined Christian Women Affiliate as a reviewer I went through the list of books there to review.  One jumped off the screen.

"Pursuit of Proverbs 31: A timeless, biblical study for the modern Christian woman" by Amy Bayliss.  I guess if God hits you with a 2 x 4 enough times you finally get it.

This book is for you.  Why? Because you are a woman.  Sure you might be a wife, you might be a mom, but one thing is true.  You are a woman.


There has been a lot swirling around about this section of scripture in my own little world lately.  I was first introduced to "the perfect woman" a few years back.  It was taught to me that she was an actual person.  She truly was able to do all of these things and do it with class and with grace.  She was a blessing to everyone and never needed anything.  If she did need anything she just did it herself because asking her husband for help with anything would be too much of a burden.  She was UNATTAINABLE in my eyes.

Then I kind of just let it go.  Thinking God will understand that I just can't be this woman.  Yet part of me still wanted to be this woman - I desired to be all those things.  I wanted her calm.  I wanted her joy.  I wanted her abilities.  I wanted how it seemed like her day had 72 hours where mine had 24.

A few weeks back my friend talked about the section where she is a blessing to her children at our moms group.  Back to Proverbs 31 ... I could not escape, but I didn't really want to either.  Just last week a friend of mine told me about the bible study she was doing about ... you guessed it Proverbs 31.

Amy gives you a simple guideline on how to use her book.  The first thing she suggests is reading it cover to cover.  This way you will know all that is there and then you can focus on where you would like to grow with the bible study.

Now I have done small group bible studies before and one thing I was never "taught" - how to do a bible study.  Well Amy gives you guidelines on how to study the bible.  How helpful!

I knew I was in the right place after I read the first few pages and I find the lyrics to a song that moved me in worship just a few days earlier.

The underlying theme is that Jesus and God need to be our central focus, not a list of guidelines about the ideal woman (she’s not a real person -  I am that slow sometimes).  Amy tells us, “The only way this scripture will be fulfilled is through Christ.  Our job is to accept that and follow Him.  If we are following Jesus we must always look to him first.”

Using personal experience and scripture she shares how we too can put Jesus first.  Things like creating a mission statement for your family or ways to invest in your children.  These are things that you can implement right away.

This was a great read and I am looking forward to diving deeper into the study.

Disclosure:  I received a free copy of this book/Ebook/Product to review. I was not required to write a positive review nor was I compensated in any other way. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the FTC Regulations. I am part of The CWA Review Crew.

{Almost} Wordless Wednesday

Little Miss is show us that she is a creative one.  She loves "Fancy Clothes".  I made napkin rings recently (post coming on Teach Me Thursday) while she was making a flower crown (post also coming on Teach Me Thursday).  She tried to wear the napkin rings like bracelets, so I made her bracelets just like the napkin rings (omit the cardboard).  She put on her crown and decided she was going to be fancy, in her jammies.

Little Mister doesn't get featured as much as Little Miss does.  So ...

There is my little man... he is getting so big.  He's 6 1/2 months old.  Sitting up and trying to crawl.  He has the rock down.  He has hopped his legs forward once or twice.  Oh boy, once he figures out crawling I am never going to have a moment's peace.  

My two little ham bones.  

Mother's Day 2012

I know it was 2 weeks ago and it was just Memorial Day.  But while going through, organizing and backing up the pictures.  Hey I am only sorting and backing up May! Woot.  I am on it with this.  I realized I never posted about Mother's Day other than the gifts we made.

Sunday morning I get woke up in the usual wake up method these days.  One of the two kids needing my attention.  This particular Sunday Kaitlyn walked in.  "Hey Guys!" (where did she get that?) She crawls into bed with us and asks for Disney Jr. I am more than happy to oblige because then I can ease into my morning a little.

We had done the whole family thing on Saturday, so today it was just us.  It was nice, except for the rain.

Keith asked me if I wanted my gifts now, I said sure.  "Babe they are not wrapped so close your eyes."  How did he get away without wrapping gifts?  Anyway.  "From Alex Mommy"  I open my eyes to find a yoga mat in my hands.  So I close my eyes again and get something dropped into my hands.  "From me" In Style magazine - which I find out is a subscription!  Finally, "From Dadddy" - Ralph Lauren perfume.  It's a new one of his.  It smells really good.

"So, a yoga mat so I can go to the gym and get my skinny on.  My magazine subscription so I can get my entertainment on while I get my cardio on at the gym.  And perfume so I don't smell like I was just at the gym.  I love them all!"

Then we go to church and Kaitlyn runs out after with a picture.  "Happy Mommy's Day!"  It was a hand print flower.

I am pretty blessed.

Review: Mom Connection

Would it be an understatement to say ...

God knows what you need, right when you need it.

Of course this is the truth because God knows everything and things are on God's timing no matter how much we would like them to be on our timing.

Where am I going with all of this?  I have been looking at Proverbs 31, writing about how it applies to the modern mom - potentially an e-book, maybe a blog series - not really sure, but I digress.  Part of Proverbs 31 is that "The Biblical Super Mom"  - as I call her - had godly relationships.  That right there, Godly relationships - that is what I am/was missing.

Because of the ebb and flow of life groups of friends would just seem to disappear.  Graduation, relocation, jobs, businesses, softball teams - Along the way a friend would stick here and there.  However, I was too a point where most of my adult conversations were happening via text, email or Facebook/Twitter chats.  I was craving a group of girl friends who loved the God that I love, knew the difficulties of planning around multiple lives, but still wanted to connect. 

How was I going to do this?  Plus, with some changes with my business I was really struggling with what God wanted me to be doing.  (more of that story here)

One day while on Facebook I see this "If you would like to review our newest book "Mom Connection" email me."  This was a status on the MOPS page.  It took me all of a nanosecond to send that email. 

Within a week there on my foyer floor sat an envelope with Mom Connection by Tracey Bianchi.  I ripped that puppy open so fast you could have seen smoke!  Let's just say I was a little excited, and my excitement didn't end there.

This book is exactly what I need at this season in my life.

"...we absolutely must create our own distinct rhythm.  For to try to sidle up under another person's hoop messes with your own groove." p152

I have been off my game for 7 to 8 months now.  It is time to get my groove back.  This book is helping me get back in the game.
 
Tracey gives you practical tips you can apply right now, wisdom from all the relationships she has developed, ideas on how to pray and journal about this - she even gives you resources to learn more!  Pour yourself a coffee and sit at the table while you read this ... why?  Because that is exactly what it feels like, sitting down connecting with a friend over a cup of coffee. 

This book is written in such a way that any mom is going to relate at some point throughout the journey from front cover to back.  If you are like me this read will stir tips, tricks and ideas of ways that you can connect with all of your mom friends - digital and IRL (in real life).

You need to read this book.  Here click this wonderful Amazon link and go get it.  You will not be disappointed.  





Just to make sure it is known, I was given a copy of Mom Connection to review. I have not received any other compensation for this post and these opinions are 100% my own.

Blessings from the Laundry Basket

Blessing - When you have four loads of laundry to fold (and two more to wash) chances are you do not need to go all the way upstairs to change your clothes when your little volcano decides you have worn outfit one long enough today.

Blessing - When that same little volcano erupts all over himself chances are there is a change of clothes right here in these baskets.

Blessing - When diapers leak during naptime you get the opportunity to change all the bedding ... AND ... give blankie a bath. (Just keep a close track of time to get that load dried by the next naptime.)

Related Blessing - When blankie is too warm to nap with you get a quick arm work out shaking the daylights out of it to cool it off.

Welcome to Our World

Alexander Michael joined our little world on 11/9/11 at 2:13pm.  He weighed in at 8 pounds 11 ounces.  Exactly one pound heavier than his big sister.  He was 20.9 inches long.  Everyone is home, happy and healthy. 

 

Kaitlyn's Korner

I used to post this sort of thing much more often than I do, but I am going to add a Kaitlyn's Korner today.

Over the weekend Kaitlyn had a rough night. She kept getting woke up because of our neighbors having a birthday party. We didn't complain because we never hear these neighbors. One night they have a party and get a little rambunctious, we can handle it. It was a Saturday even. First we brought her in bed with us. Knowing this would not work, we are very blessed that Kaitlyn will not sleep in our bed. We watched some of her favorite tv shows and finally just turned everything off and made the room dark. Eventually she fell asleep, for an hour or so. We put her in bed and she fell asleep again for an hour or so. This went on and on all night long. Finally at 5am we gave up. We got up ate breakfast and started our day.

The very next night their was another incident. This time I think it was more just hearing our neighbors TV around 11pm. I picked her up and started rocking her. She fell asleep in my arms and would not stay asleep unless she was in my arms. I finally had to put her down and just let her cry it out for a few minutes. Before I did though, I counted my blessings. I thanked God for this wonderful little girl He has entrusted us with.

She has reminded us of so many things.

1. How to take pleasure in the simple, simple things in life.
2. It's important to take time to play.
3. Patience is something you have to work on every day.
4. She is watching much more than we are aware of. (She correctly put deodorant on the other day - under her arms, and then said Dada so I guess she has seen Daddy do this one too many times.)
5. It's easy to get frustrated with life. You have to just have to ask for help.

In 19 days her little brother will be joining our happy family. We are very excited, and I am sure that there will be an adjustment period for all of us. Thanks for being our little girl Kaitlyn Alexis. Mommy, Daddy and Perdy (Kirby) love you very much.

Changes

When I finished writing this I am now debating posting it.  Yes, I added this after I was done.

So much has been going on lately I basically have put way to much on the back burner.  Basically everything has been put on the back burner, and I am not sure there are any back burners left.

First things first.  This pregnancy has made me pretty sick.  Not as sick as pregnancy #1, but still sick.  Sickness and a toddler - fun stuff!  I have figured out how to keep it manageable at least. November is going to be here before we know it.

We also have been moving.  We had virtually no help (one day our amazing friends were able to help with the large things).  The power was shut off at our old place (super long story that was not our fault), so we had to do everything during the daylight.  In addition to that it rained the entire month of April.  This is no exaggeration, it rained all except for 3 days.  It was horrible to say the least.  We moved and got settled.

It was mostly together for by the beginning of May, but we still had a few things to do.  Mother's Day rolled around and all of a sudden I had a houseful of company and a dinner to prepare.  (This happens last minute too often.)  Well that meant I had to get all the little things done (hidden if they can't be finished yet.) Well I got at least the stuff put away/hidden.  We are still making it a home.  I have pictures to hang in my living room, curtains to hang (which I am afraid to do since we do have a leak around our window in our living room), shower curtain needs to be hung in the hall bath (we don't use it) and 3 closets to organize (but least the doors can be closed).

Summer is about to get underway.  So that meant I needed to find babysitting for the summer.  Which was a headache to say the least.  That does mean that I still need to double check with our sitter to make sure everything is in order.  I would hate for the first day to need her and her not be here on time.  Clients are still booking events and times are basically out.  Which is a good thing.  The business seemed to take a back burner to a lot of other things I was trying to do with it and our actually bookings show that.  We have learned somethings this year that we will be changing for next summer.

My husband works for a company where his job is unstable to say the least.  That adds a whole different level of stress to our already stressful situation.  Now that we are moved and things are settled, our bills dropped so much things will start to even themselves out.

Not any of this really addresses where all of my funk/stress/unbalanced feelings are coming from.  It feels like my relationship with God is non-existent.  I have been a believer for several years now.  I truly feel I am saved.  However I also feel like I have never really figured out how to have a relationship with God.  A few years back things were a lot, lot better.  I felt I at least had a relationship with God - I feel that relationship is completely gone.  I know that it is not God's fault, it's completely mine.  This is something that I need to get back on the right track.  If I don't nothing else is going to get back on the right track either.

All of this considered, it's surprising that I was able to get anything done.  The truth is I wasn't.  I was/am irritable, I feel like I am just going through my days waiting for bed time, living from nap to nap.  How is this a good example for my daughter?  Now granted she won't remember what has happened over the last few months, but what if it continues and nothing changes.  Then our life will stay stressful and unproductive and I will not be a good example for her and the baby coming.  How is this being a good wife for my husband?  How is this respecting my marriage or how hard my husband works to so that I can build a business from the ground up?

I need to make some changes.  It starts with my relationship with God.  I fix/work on that everything else will just fall into proper place.

Spontaneous Adventure

Last week Keith was informed (Tuesday) that he had to be in Columbus for a training on Friday.  At no point throughout the week was there mention of Kaitlyn and I going with him.  Friday morning I get up and while I was in the shower I thought.  It might be fun if Kaitlyn and I go with him.  If he would have left before I got downstairs it wasn't going to be a big deal.  I get down stairs and Keith was still home.  I asked him if he wanted us to go with him.  The drive to Columbus is 90 minutes to 2 hours and not fun to do by yourself.  At first he was apprehensive because it would mess with Kaitlyn's nap schedule and he didn't know what we would do all day.

"I have a GPS, we will find something to do.  She can sleep in the car or in her stroller."

We went to Columbus.  She ate breakfast in the car and we rode up to Columbus.

Once we got there I decided we were going to find a mall.  The first "mall" we went to via GPS - a shopping center with a grocery store and a CVS.  Yeah, that's not a mall.  I then figured I would put in Macy's seeing that those are usually in a mall.  Well the second "mall" was an outdoor shopping mall - all the entries were from the outside.  I figured I would try again.  We found a Target and I asked someone the name of an indoor mall.  She told me their was one off of Polaris.  Ahh Ha!

Found it on the GPS 15 miles from where I was.  Not a big deal.  We head off to Polaris Mall - 30 seconds into the drive over there Kaitlyn fell asleep.  Thanks to 2 wrong turns - the GPS didn't inform me which way I needed to turn early enough to get in the correct lane of traffic - Kaitlyn did get a 20 minute nap in.

So we go into the mall and I find a small discovery.  My wallet was still at home!  Thank God I had packed snacks for Kaitlyn at least she would be able to eat those for lunch.  Not a big deal, it's all part of the adventure.  Keith's training was going to be over by 3 so it would just be a late lunch for me.

Well the center of this mall is a large play area based off the Columbus Zoo, where Jack Hannah is from.  For a good 5 minutes she stood in the middle pointing at things, not really sure what to do.  There were not that many kids there which was nice.  Most of the kids there were under 2 (the first time we went to play). 

She was starting to walk out of the play area, so I figured it was time to leave.  We walked around the mall.  Ate lunch, window shopped - yeah, the whole forgotten wallet.  Before we left we went back to the play area.  There were a lot more kids there this time around.  She figured out that you can crawl through the tree.  She figured it out it was okay to play with the other kids and run around.  She kept chasing this little boy who was all to pleased to run from her.

It was time to leave.  When we got back to where Keith was training I let her get out of her carseat while we were waiting - she was about to be in it for almost 2 hours.

We did stop at McDonald's for a late lunch - Mommy was hungry.  I wanted something fast so we could get home beating rush hour traffic back home.  Not even 15 minutes into our drive home ...

 

Kaitlyn and I had a fun adventure.  This picture tells it all.  

Sometimes I just need to be Mommy

This afternoon I stopped trying to get things done. I stopped thinking about all the I should be doing this or that. I stopped thinking about anything other than this beautiful little girl. She is growing up just too fast. (All moms say that don't they)